writing...

The hardest thing about writing, is writing!!!  I have been working on this blog in my head for months now...
My live and goals quickly changed since my last post.  The biggest being i was diagnosed with ms and I have been battling this monster ever since...
I want to use this blog to share my experiences battling ms and trying to recover my dreams of the future...
A forced new dream of the future as ms stole the other dreams I was working on...
Luckily I still have my passion, glass and art!  And I have added a few new passions like health and well being...
I am a different person than the girl who started this blog...
I am so happy about that as well...
I feel like a better person...
Like the rose colored glasses that were over my eyes is gone and I can see the true beauties of this life....
the moments, the people, the connections, the experience...
I want to express how my ms is affecting me and how and what i am doing to get my life back...
To become a person who is not defined by my disease..
This is hard when the disease gives you forced breaks...
I may never know what its like to feel symptom free but I hope to find a new normal...
A normal so I can move on with my life...

I feel like everything has changed since vegas... Like this bubble I was living in suddenly got popped and now the dream is possible. The feeling of belonging was something that bonds all of us lampworkers together regardless of our personalities or quirks. The fact that we all have fears but some of us really push through those fears and make work that really says something about ourselves.

I spoke with people about art, glass and dreams... The glass dreams that bind us together and at an event like this, I felt more bonded than ever. To meet people that truly understand the power of glass in your life. The power of really sharing and learning, expressing and talking.... I spoke to only a few of the people I had wanted to but I met a lot of amazing people who I wasn’t planning to...

My heart is full from this experience in a way that it has never been. Within this community I have found confidence, pride and encouragement. Some of the conversations I had were so friendly and full of genuine honesty, it was something that was definitely missing in my life.

I now know that I can really do this thing I have working towards and now is the time for me to really go for it. No more of this jogging on the treadmill. I need to take it outside again and run to the next destiny.

my website!!!

I am currently working on a new website and plan to have it up by this summer....

x-mas day...

I need to do everything different this year... Not as many bracelets as before... I need to make more money with my glass and find my niche in the glass community. I will take this week to formulate a plan or idea for the year... Post more soon.

Holidayz 2009

Hello friends....

I've got big plans for 2010!!! While I'm working things I'll be posting on my new blog and adding photos and videos updates of the stuff I'm doing...

I am scared to be honest about my feelings. I am scared to put my heart out there... I am afraid to succeed and become the woman I dream of being...

It is scary and most scary when you have to do it alone.

Murano 2005

A life changing experience I am only now, 4 years later putting out there. I do hope you enjoy my pictures.  

http://www.flickr.com/photos/shadeglass/sets/72157619632648987/